I hate whining to people who don't want to hear it, so:

Its been a shitty week. I had 3 assignments due this week, only 1 is done, and none will be on time (each is 10%-25% of the grade for a class). This is what I get for taking a weekend off that I couldn't spare. There have been a lot of 12-hour days these past couple weeks that could have been avoided with better planning. I only need to pass my classes to graduate, and while the chance of failing one is small, I think its now non-zero, which is unsettling and unusual.

Plus I didn't think to drop the fun class that my advisor wouldn't let count, and that bumped me from 9 units to 13, and under Stanford's tuition rules that brings me from a part-time to full-time student and increases my tuition by 50% (over three grand extra). I didn't realize this until I got my bill, and of course they don't send out the bills until after the drop date, because they want to send you a final tally. I'm petitioning (beaurospeak for "saying pretty please") to have that fixed, I have an appointment tomorrow, we'll see.

Then this morning, while making tea, I splashed scalding water on myself, and now have a two-inch mass of blisters. An hour later, wearing socks, I slipped on our hardwood floor, slamming my toes against the corner of the wall. That's when I started feeling really whiny.

I've criticized other people in the past for complaining/whining too much. Now I wonder if its just that I haven't had much to complain about. Well, ok, I don't actually think that's all there is to it, I think part of it is disposition and internal strength and the other stuff I thought before. I've seen different people handle similar levels of adversity very differently. But now I'm seeing more of the other side, that adversity is easier to handle if it comes in measured doses, that sometimes life just all-around sucks. And when that happens the natural thing is whine about how it sucks, regardless of whether it was your fault, whether or not there's a bright side, whether or not its going away soon.

So I am. Ok, I'm done. Back to work.

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